A story about romantic love, heart-break, & giving yourself permission (as a spiritual person) to claim the material wealth and wordly pleasures you actually desire.....

I recently took a trip to Glastonbury to dwell in the energy of the place and receive support for the current spiritual upgrade I am personally navigating (Here we go again🙃for the 1000th fucking time!!!).

Whilst there, I mentioned to a few people that I was considering moving to the town for a period of time to run retreats and publicly teach women the esoteric  been teaching online over the past two years....

Several of the women (and men) that I spoke to, looked puzzled. My air b&b hostess said to me “I’m surprised a woman like you would want to move to Glastonbury. You’re such a striking, powerful young woman, I would have imagined seeing you drawn to New York, London or Los Angels. That’s where glamorous people such as yourself tend to go!” - Firslty, LOL at the idea of me being glamorous, I mean, perhaps on occasion when I feel like making the extra effort for the purpose of my brand/creations, but I'm more like the dark-forest-elf-witch that resides in the near-by woods with crows nesting in her hair whom only emerges once every new-moon to warn the towns-folk of an on-coming storm/political upheaveal....anyway....

Whilst Glastonbury isn’t perhaps a place that tends to attract the world's most ambitious people, whom are desiring to create massive impact with their work on a global scale (something I am slowly working towards) I don’t share the same sentiments regarding what it means to be a 'spiritual person', I've noticed that 'walking the spiritual path' has taken on a very narrow, one-dimensional, oppressive meaning in the new-age community. One which seems to exclude the idea that a person can be both spiritual AND also desire to live a life liberated beyond all definitions, ideals and limitation, and one of the socially enforced limitations that we've assigned to spirituality, is that "you can't be spiritual AND also want to be wildly-successful, noticed by thousands/millions, and enjoy the pleasures that this worldly existence has to offer"......

So these are my thoughts on what it means to be a spiritually-inclined-highly-sensitive-individual, whom also desires fame, money and worldly success.....

Somewhere around the age of 15, I intentionally and consciously decided I wanted to be one of those rare individuals that merge the dreams contained by my soul-self, with the ambitions of my human-self, and demonstrate the manifestation of what this merging looks like in the 3-d dimension ; bringing the spiritual to the physical, along with busting the ridiculous myth that "spiritual people can’t want lots of money, attention and fame”

I am one of the very few highly sensitive spiritual people I personally know, that has chosen to make themselves visible and pursue the path of drawing in attention, oppose to shying away and living a quiet secluded life. The vast majority of my spiritual friends harbour big dreams of some sort, but over the years, trauma, loss, personal challenges and the daily-exhaustion of human life disconnected them from their-once-burning-desire to push beyond their comfort zone and dare to ask for more, causing most of them to settle for a life that, frankly, isn’t bringing them the deeper sense of fulfilment and creative challenge their soul truly desires.....

Many spiritual folk have unfortunately fallen into the ‘man-made archetype’ of what it means to be a ‘spiritual person’.

And all too often, this results in spiritual-seekers falling into the trap of endlessly traversing higher-dimensions of existence (Through their psychedelic adventures and so forth) but failing to become grounded, authoritative and forth-coming enough, to make their spiritual dreams work, in the ‘real world’.

My decision to pursue my worldly ambitions and aim for the sky, recently resulted in a break up with a soul-mate. A man whom decided that he ‘just wasn’t interested’ in making lots of money, and frankly, the very thought of it made him feel sick’ - to me, this revealed the character of a man that possessed many cultural and religious blocks around his association with money and worldly success, and rather than choosing to examine ‘the feeling of sickness’ towards money, he chose to demonise money, making it the enemy, failing to recognise that money and the desire for worldly success isn’t the problem, but rather his mentality towards it. 

Tom’s attitude towards worldly success (as a highly-sensitive  spiritual man) is the perfect example of ‘a man with big dreams, and no plan to ground them in reality’ - I can predict Tom’s life trajectory simply from his attitude towards money and worldly success. Similarly to most spiritually-inclined men, he will most likely drift through the world, hopping from one idea to the next, but never seeing an idea through long enough to bring any of his aspirations to fruition, failing to recognise that the dreams we possess in the ethers, can not come to fruition without the gritty, difficult, arduous work required of us to make those dreams work in the real world.

What saddened me the most about this relationship, was Tom’s failings to recognise that our dreams and ambitions and soul-paths weren’t that different from each other :

We both desired to make an impact in the world through our spiritual teachings. We both desired to prepare humanity for the great awakening that will only continue to result in tremendous upheaval and political and collective unrest (And therefore requires more and more spiritually-switched-on souls to claim their power, take up space, and use their voice and creative-expression to be of service to others whom are not so advanced or as far-along on the path to coming into consciousness). In many ways, his soul, and my own, desired the same, but the difference between us, is that I recognise the importance of worldly resources (money, influential connections) discipline, drive and building an online community through platforms such as tiktok, insta, threads, YouTube, in order to excel with my visions.

I have met many Toms in my life, and all of them, a decade later, are still drifting along aimlessly, struggling financially, and moving from one failed relationship to the next. Like I said, the life trajectory of such a man is easy to predict, once you recognise that these men are all talk, dreams and wishful thinking, and no grit, discipline and resilience to make their life work in physical reality. Men like Tom have always reminded me of the importance of becoming spiritually grounded and sane. Whilst such men of the world might express that their definition of success is merely 'different' to mine, one thing I can assure you about succesful people is that they face each and everything they are in a relationship of resistance and avoidance with, head-on. They need to, in order to stretch themselves beyond their current capacity, and become a human capeable of materialising their ambitions. There are few spiritual individuals that I admire, for the reason that they so often use their spirituality as an excuse to stay small, pulled and pushed by the current of life, but never generating the discipline to become master of their own creative destiny. It takes courage and honesty to admit when we are using our spirituality as an excuse to escape the challenges of the world, and shelter oruselves away from the brutality of existence, because it's easier than facing the music head-on. The vast amount of spiritual healing I have done on myself over the past 8 years, has been directed towards strenghtening and feeding the parts of me that have been weakened and made vulnerable by the traumas of life, so that I could re-emerge in my strenght, power, and be a voice that speaks on behalf of the many many women (and men) whom have yet to break free from the chains of inner-oppression, and realise that the power they contain to transform their lives, must be acrtivated through daily practise, if they are to truly transform their reality.

But back to my original point about being a highly-sensitive spiritual person and also desiring fame :

One thing humans are not particularly great at, is being able to hold two polar opposite energies and desires at one : The desire to be spiritually devoted and inward dwelling, and the desire to be materialistically successful is a prime example of this.

I believe we need more highly sensitive individuals to put themselves in front of large audiences, get their voice heard and desire money, without feeling guilt for asking for more. I often hear wordy people say “spiritual people always have load of great ideas, but no drive, disciple or ability to ground them in reality”.....and sadly, this is largely the truth......

I have met a few ingenious creative spiritual folk, but unfortunately they waste their lives away wondering from one potential-vision and dream to the next, and never making it an actuality, and this is where I want to change the game and change the narrative around what it looks like to be a spiritual individual. And more importantly, a spiritual woman....

-You can be extremely spiritually devoted, and desire a multi-million dollar company.

-You can be extremely spiritually devoted, and want hot, kinky, sex with endless role-play.

-You can be spiritual, and desire fame, attention, and adoration from the audience you're influencing (and there is absolutely nothing wrong with desiring fame and notability, if you know how to take the energy people direct towards you, and alchemise that to create on behalf of your audience). 

-You can be highly ridiculously sensitive and deeply feeling, and also carry the strength to manifest a big creative destiny, where you make the sort of art that triggers, motivates, fuels and inspires others to claim back their power of expression.

As an exceptionally complex individual who understands the pull of duality and how to work with two polar opposite forces within her, I do not subscribe to the "You must be either spiritually devoted, invisible and financially-struggling’ or “you must be rich, superficial, and a soulless, ego-driven human being" narrative which we tend to cling to….

I am someone that knows how to hold a multitude of contrasting, conflicting energies and desires within her, and it is for that reason, that I understand we have the capacity as humans, to want many opposing things all at once, and this is where self-mastery comes in If you can work with the part of you that is sensitive, shy, reclusive, and get them on board to support the ambitions contained by the part of you that desires expansion, pleasure, wealth and success, then you will create a deeply nourishing and interesting life for yourself.

Like I said, we need more spiritually-inclined folk to demonstrate what it looks like to be both in spiritual integrity and also desire money, success and attention. To demonise your desires and make them ‘wrong’, is not spiritually progressive. It is the total opposite. To be spiritually progressive, we need to recognise that our worldly desires are implanted within us, in order to help our soul-self actualise itself....

If you are a spiritual person that seeks more than a frugal, limited life, then start by getting honest with yourself about what you actually want.....

It’s easier to lie to yourself, bury the little spark of desire for ‘more’ flickering in the depths of your spirit, because let’s face it : people that settle are people that live easy lives. They won’t challenge themselves to turn inwards and work with the resistance and fear of BEING powerful, and HAVING more money and materialistic success. Many spiritual people use the ‘im a sensitive spiritual being’ as a way to check out from life. To float along passively, drifting from one idea to the next, one relationship to the next, never fully committing themselves to anything for fear of it not working out...

This doesn’t make your sensitive or spiritual. It makes you lazy, and unwilling to out yourself in unfamiliar and uncomfortable situation in order to experience tremendous transformation, and to build the grit, resilience and perserverance (something alot of spiritual people don’t particularly have ). Ultimately, most of us have been bomabrded with a singular archetype of wealthy individual which has resulted in us colelctively creating the narrative that 'wealthy successful people are also selfish, self-seeking, unkind jerks that only consider themselves'.

In order to shift our association with what it means to be 'spiritual', to one that is associated with taking up very little space, expecting the bear minimum from life' to one in which we allow ourselves to bask in the pleasures that the material world is able to offer, express ourselves with all the fortitude and creative alivness that our soul incarnated housing, to dress precisely as we desire, to speak as loudly as we dare, and to live a vivacious, rememberable life, we need to purge ourselves of the toxic programming that 'being spiritual needs to look one way or another', because ultimately, being spiritual comes down to aligning with your soul's karmic, dharmic plan for this lifetime, acting from heart-centered integrity, WHILST experiencing all of the joys and pleasures that are available to us, during our exceptionally short time on this planet, and the only thing that would make you 'non' spiritual, is actively going out of your way to inflict harm upon others (through deceitful, manipulative, destructive or unkind behaviour). As long as you operate from integrity in your quest to accumulate more money and worldly success, go ahead, claim your abundance, shine your light, and do not allow yourself to be limited due to other people's fear of their own success, pleasure and wealth. Remember, by choosing to be a rare exception to the archetype of 'spiritual individual', you will ultimately face backlash and dissaproval, and I implore you to walk on, and continue embodying your power (especially as a woman)......

P.s! : Please do remember that the vast majority of spiritual teachings popularise in the west, come from white men of reasonable privilege that had the good fortune of being able to live a simplistic frugal existence!! It's 2024, and now more than ever is this new-era of awakening, is the time to make money a source of positivity that can be utilised on behalf of those that need it the most.....

I'd love to know your personal experience as a spiritual individual in relationship to accepting more money, attention and worldly success into your reality! Drop a comment below and let me know.